July, Really?

He said, "You need someone like me".
I sat and thought about that for a while. He gathered that from what he read?
I haven't been nervous like that in a few weeks and I really was trying to stand my ground.
See, I was taught to not worry about the past, to not look back, and to just keep going, while learning from whatever I did wrong. But sometimes, I skip out on the "learning" part and I make the same mistakes over and over again. But this is apart of growing up, which I am still doing apparently.

It might comfort you to know that I was never really taught anything about monogamy. Or maybe that will make you more uneasy, I'm not sure. The household I grew up in was well, interesting. It swung a lot.
I've told my heart to be still in the past and it usually listens. But see, it takes two. And I think I made that clear.

I'm taxing, we all know this. I try to act tough and calm, but fuck, when those chromosomes got together in that intoxicated womb, well, silly, funny things happened to the part called, BRAIN.
We've been over this.

And most of the time people aren't really used to other people being their complete selves. I mean, I think a lot of people are fake and a lot of people know this and that's what they're used to.
So while I am 100% myself always, people are caught off guard, people can't handle it.

Take it or leave it, I'll keep shining on.