I've said this before and I'll say it again; I wish more people were like me.
I've been sober for so long now and it only makes me want to drink. My life is freakishly the same without pills which only makes me feel stupid for ever being addicted. But, my heart rate and my pulse are far above average...my body is still adjusting.
My body is adjusting to a lot of things, actually. Like, the ten or so push ups I've been doing nightly and the less often orgasms it's been getting. My mind is finally occupied and it's actually relaxing to go entire days not worrying if I'm going to get laid or not. It just doesn't matter, I've got bigger things on my plate right now.
Or maybe it's that my heart is staying in one place, with one male, for the first time is almost two years. I mean, he has a hold on me like he wouldn't believe. I can hardly believe it.
If only all of the drunken conversations could be validated the morning after. I am waiting....
But soon I'll be in the postion where dating might not work out. Who knows where I'll be, who knows what I will be.
Drastic changes always feel so good.
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