I can take on anything that gets thrown at me. I've been that way my entire life, and really it's one of the only things I love about myself. And that's what brings me to this keyboard and back to this blog, I've started to love myself again.
With self love comes a lot of limits and it's time to be good again.
I've been on a good one for the last month. I mean, I've gone hard; fucking any penis that looks good and turns me on. I NEED TO STOP. It doesn't make me feel good and I don't get anywhere by doing that. I'm so numb from so many men not wanting a real relationship that I'd rather just antagonize myself with the lawyer and only the lawyer for one more whole year.
I'v become so cheap and I feel so vile when I wake up to a boy I hardly know. They don't care about me. They'd never do anything for me if I needed something.
So that brings me to realize that the lawyer is the closest person to me. He's been there for me after every god damn bad thing that's happened to me since i've known him. I know he loves me and I've only felt it even more lately.
I will wait, I will wait for you.
